No sleep will come,
problems are knocking,
I hide and cower in fear,
at a face so dear,

run and scream,
horror bubbling,
betrayal,deceit,
at one in the morning,

Hurt and crying,
alone and dying,
all inside,
finally understands,

though i cower and quake,
she made that mistake,
she picked up the phone,
excuses and apologies,

never stops bothering me,
I tell her my story,
of pain and heartquakes,

"Hes a lazy no good,
dirty drinking man whore,
he makes you feel bad,
whats he good for??"

she bows her head,
closes her eyes,
"He says he loves me,
and that he cries."

"Ya know what mom,
lets play a game,
truth or dare,
thats its name.

"I dare you to open your eyes,
what do you see,
let me anwser that,
you see me,

"one more dare,
look in my eyes,
what can you see?
I just cryed!

"I was here first,
dont you love me the most?
Wait, i forgot,
you obviously don't!"

She looks at me,
with tear flooded cheeks,
"Your taking this wrong,
its the first time in weeks!"

"I WASN'T DONE!"
I start to scream,
I start to wish this
was all a dream.

"MOM LOOK AT THIS,
YOU SEE ME,
A LITTLE GIRL,
no family"

I run and scream,
protecting my dignity,
look at the floor,
it all seems imaginary,

"did you take your pill?"
A question that hurts,
My eyes fill over,
my stomach burns

"YES, I DID!
IM ACTUALLY HURT,
IM CRYING ,
BECAUSE OF YOU!

"WHEN YOU ASK ME THAT QUESTION,
IT BURNS RIGHT THROUGH ME!,
ITS NOT MY FAULT!
YOUR THE ONE WHO MADE ME!

"I I HAD SOMEONE CLOSE,
WHO I LOVE BUT PITY,
BUT I SAID NO
AND LEFT HIM LONELY,
WHY CANT YOU???

She looks at me in confusion,
and screams at me in conclusion,
"YOU HAVE ANOTHER,
IM ALL ALONE!"

My turn to freeze,
i close my eyes,
and fall on my knees,
"WHAT ABOUT ME! IM HERE FOR YOU!"

I want to run,
but everything spins,
I get of my knees,
no one will win.

I look in disgust,
true hate and sorrow,
tears in her eyes,
"we can talk tomorrow!"

"NO WE CANT!
YOU HAVE ANOTHER
YOU HAVE ME!
someone,
your truly hurting.

"It's not a phase,
i took my pill,
I'm actually upset,
this is real!"

The door only an arm length away,
twist the handle,
and look  her way,
i let it snap back.

walk past her mesmerized,
into my room
and onto my bed
I'm sure my eyes are red,

where would i go?
to tired to know,
a glance at the clock,
sleep is a must.

"Don't look at me,
your not worthy,
It's already 2,
let me sleep"